sick

well.... sort of sick for the past few days... took an mc.... sigh

now i m better... but some other pains just refuse to go away.........

i feel cursed, starting to lose faith that there is some purpose for me to go through this.......

lol.... i sort of wish chinese was still a requirement for jc L1R5.... so tat i will not get into a jc... so that i can go to a poly.... so i can have a life..
cya for now

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love: it creates laughter, tears, anger, determination, mistakes and commitments....

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stuck

lol...... ysterday... my grandmother's birthday... my older cousin snuck away with my hp.... saw my outbox... told me her opinion..... tat i was being stupid.... tat someone was also stupid..... i kinda got realli upset....

i have no idea what to do.. stuck between a rock and a hard place.... wonder if she reads tis..... i think i m gonna do really bad for my chem common test...........

what happened to me? i used to be able to get over these kind of things......

now....then.... past.... future.........

well..... another second another minute another hour another day another week has passed......

now it seems..... everytime i smile..... a voice inside reminds me..... what's the point what's ur purpose in life what can you do what is ur hope why do you hope ur a hopeless loser u have lost everything..... yup no punctuation.... tats how it feels like.... over n over in my head........

i know what i do seems hopeless.... that i seem idiotically stubborn....
but i would rather fight a hopeless battle against chance.... then just give up and say that you all are losers.......

sigh... something wrong wth my phone... so no pics.....

everything seems to want to give up on me......

my bro is disturbing me again................

Y DOES MY LIFE HAVE TO HAVE SUCH MOMENTS WHEN IT SEEMS EVERYTHING SUCKES!!!!

well..... haha... i feel like an idiot.... i got scolded today for not really doing my chinese hmwk....

well... first things first i have some problems understanding d questions.... haha

but back to y i feel like an idiot.... i had more than just a sudden burst of optimism on valentine's day... expected shu fen to scold me for u-know-what.... but hahaha... got more than a few encouragements....

unfortunately as is the way with life..... every bright light is followed by moments in darkness..... on 15 i just started feeling way depressed... got sick of my life...... wondered what my life should be like.....

i really pushed too far with the most impt person in my life..... i don't know if she was touched or jus really pitied me...... i don't dare msg her for the time being.... not sure if i will hurt her or not..... sigh...

i wish i could say srry ..... but tat would mean msging her... n all i hav now is just enuf time to type this out..... have to try work thru my chinese...

tat was close my bro....

bye

o lvl results

haha.... well managed to do quite well.....

wanted to take pics but ppl started crying..... so no pics of elanor, shu fen, ms ng, etc......

but well here r d nicer pic of d cross country, letures etc.... if ur not staying in aj 1706 i will not forget u.....